this is something.

ive figured out after so long of being by myself that i'm alone because of myself, everyone needs that spontanious and delicate someone to take you away from what youve been feeling when youre all alone, all caught up in yourself when it all just needs to be, maybe released? Everyone has that picture in the back of their minds who they want to be with for the rest of their life, but then some people see nothing? maybe it's hard to let in not knowing what you actually want since you havent pictured it, it isn't giving you the chance to see what you actually want, truth is, i get bored, bored of life, bored of anything that comes into it, maybe i'm just a pain, maybe i'm too hard to forfill, probably why everyone has left, can i just wake up one morning and be happy instead of feeling no emotion, i wanna wake up having a picture of what i want my future to be like so i have somethng to wake up for, i wanna see what i want, what i want in life, to achieve something, i want to travel but the lack of seeing it actually happening is stopping me, i wanna go on long road trips and wake up to the love of my life, to feel how delicate she is, how her out of everyone is mine, everythings just so much the same, life, me, i need spontanious, someone to catch my eye and to pick me up and just adventure, take risks, youre not young forever, you may as well enjoy it, death can take us at any minute and do you want that? do you want death to take you when you havent forfllled your life the way you wanted it too? step back and relax, sky dive, go deep sea diving, live because youll only regret it when youre lying in a hospital bed regretting not doing what youve always wanted too, less with the imagination more with the actions, do something new, do something you never thought youd do, make life worth living.

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