The Piece the Puzzle Lacks

They say that finding contentment in life is what will bring you happiness.

They say that if you can find enjoyment in what you have, despite what struggles you face, that you will find the key to joy and a good life. What if that key is held by someone else though? And what if that person doesn’t want to be with you? What do you do then?

What do I do? What piece of the puzzle am I missing that’s preventing me from seeing the whole picture. I’ve looked in the box, under the table, between the cracks that seem to grow ever larger in the floor. Maybe that’s the secret. Maybe it’s in the darkness, deep down where no light shines. Maybe if I dig deep enough, I can find it.

Is six feet deep enough? Can there still be something there? I think I need to go deeper. Deeper than others have searched before. Deep enough that those around me won’t think to look for me. Is it there that I will find what I’m looking for? Where I neither toss nor turn? Where no one sees me, eliminating thoughts of me from coming to mind?

If I go there can I find peace? I know well that going there will not bring me happiness. I will feel no emotion, I will not think a single thought. I won’t need money, sustenance of any kind, a bed to sleep in, or clothes to wear. If I go there I won’t have any worries or struggles. I won’t feel the pain that comes with failing the ones I love. I won’t be able to lead them along, all the while building them up only to knock them down by failing them again and again.

I think that is where I must go. Under enough to weigh me down and prevent me from moving to disturb even the dirt and rock that lay upon me.

Yes, I know I will feel pain as I struggle to breathe but I will not feel any fear. I’ve never feared what is down there, if anything I welcome it with open arms. It seems to be the one piece of the puzzle that I need for the picture to be complete.

It won’t be complete for me, but it will be a beautiful picture for those who see it, who live it.

I know the piece the puzzle lacks. I must attain it to bring the joy and happiness to those who need it. They will move on with there lives, unaware of what has changed. Knowing they are happy and that their lives suddenly feel right and complete.

I bear the burden of finding the final piece to their happiness. I know what I must do. I will leave tonight, leaving no sign of my departure but a note that says “I love you.” No signature will be required, for I do not want notoriety. I’m not leaving to be found, I’m leaving to find.

It’s this final piece, my final peace, that will complete the puzzle that has long been incomplete. Once I find it, I will not keep it to myself, I will not selfishly keep it hidden as some treasure lost at sea. I will put it where it must go to complete the picture for all to enjoy.

Rejoice, for now the picture is complete. Do not worry, no, do not feel guilty. It is not the fault of anyone. It is not a tragic occurrence. It is what needed to be done. It is what brought you to who you needed, showed you the one whom you truly deserved.

It’s no great thing on my part. Though I found the piece, the credit goes to everyone else. It belongs to him and her and you and them. I only found the piece that was missing for me but knowing, with full confidence, that the lives of those around me are better and will be is what drove me to do this.

Regretfully, I have to ask you only one thing. A simple thing but I regret having to ask because I don’t want to bother you.

Please. Please do the best you can in life. Do what is right and what makes you happy. Do what makes the ones you love happy. Live your life the best you can and stand up to those who try to put you down. Be the best you can be and never look back at what you’ve failed, except to use it as a step to better yourself. Do what I could not.

They say that finding contentment in life is what will bring you happiness.

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