The nauseating feeling passing through me everyday seem to go away. Is it from all the drugs im consuming? Or is it the fact i havent ate or slept in days. Is it depression thats building inside my body? Or maybe my mind is just that sick and fucked up even my body recognizes it. The feelings going away only growing stronger. I feel as though im at the darkest point in my life. no hope for me. Im a human creating a monster. A monster full of hate and death. A monster i see when i look in the mirror. I dont even recognize myself anymore. I take these 3 pills, drink this bottle, and lie awake as i make the monster inside me feel more alive then ever. The monster i am and so glad to be, because if i didnt become the monster i would still be heartbroken over you. But even my monster cant compare to you. I roam these halls as something else, does anybody even notice? They all just laugh and talk away, no idea the dark pain i have. How do people not see, not see that this isnt me. The happy girl you once knew, gone forever, but soon youll know, that it is no longer me, because the demons in your head will no longer be just a voice theyll become more and more, and youll end up like me. Because everyone has a monster, it just as to be awoken. And just like me, you will lie in the dark thinking of what to do, and alls youll see is death, youll try to listen to hear your thoughts say no. But its only silence, then my friend youll know what you have to do. Forget yourself and become the monster, theres no fighting it. Trust me i know.