My Tortured mind

poem by: Celeste Gaffney
Written on Jan 21, 2015


My tortured mind, the only thing that keeps me alive? Pretty funny you may 
think because its the same thing thats killing me. But what you or no one 
else could understand its how i feel, and thats better then not feeling at 
all. All this pain locked inside making me wish i was dead, yet happy im 
alive. It keeps my excitement still inside, the excitement i know ill feel 
the moment im dying. Ironic? That im staying alive to experience death. 
Death is not something to fear, especially for a tortured mind. Why you 
might ask? Haha why its the only thought i have.  Being tortured, burned, 
stabbed, shot, eaten, skinned, all exciting, far from scary, Because if 
your not feeling pain then your not feeling happiness, because there's no 
such thing. Having a tortured mind gives me that advantage, i dont look for 
what's not there, i look for what's to come. 

 

Tags: sad, deep, pain, dark, fear,

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Milton Robertson commented:
I Look at the Beauty of the land, I look at the Beauty of the Sea, I look at the clear blue Sky and I see Infinity. I Want In.
pat hoban commented:
deep n complex but i believe constant pain causes one to be happy when the pain or self-torment sub-sides.
Christopher Russon commented:
Never keep things inside,good friends are there to unlock those doors That lead to the waters of life.
Shanta commented:
Perception is not knowledge - poetry is what's beyond the senses, look at your tags - tells all however, the poem having potential - all you need - honestly tell: Why?
Annie Kirby commented:
It's just a ride - I chant into the mirror, both exciting and painful. We write and we suffer. I enjoyed your beautifully sad poem!
Edward shields commented:
You have tortured mind and comes across in your poetry
Frank Hornby . commented on Sep 29, 2017 at 2:26pm
If your happy, and you know it ....clap your hands...

 

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