My tortured mind, the only thing that keeps me alive? Pretty funny you may think because its the same thing thats killing me. But what you or no one else could understand its how i feel, and thats better then not feeling at all. All this pain locked inside making me wish i was dead, yet happy im alive. It keeps my excitement still inside, the excitement i know ill feel the moment im dying. Ironic? That im staying alive to experience death. Death is not something to fear, especially for a tortured mind. Why you might ask? Haha why its the only thought i have. Being tortured, burned, stabbed, shot, eaten, skinned, all exciting, far from scary, Because if your not feeling pain then your not feeling happiness, because there's no such thing. Having a tortured mind gives me that advantage, i dont look for what's not there, i look for what's to come.