I hate myself

poem by: Audrey Blackmore
Written on Sep 17, 2018 

I hate myself I hate how I think 
I wish I could be different every time I blink
I wonder what it's like to be someone else
Because I really don't want to be myself
I would give anything to be like her
“She's going to go far in life because her head's on right”
Yeah but mine is twisted and bruised 
Yeah i’ll be fine 
Yeah I think i’m sure 
But i’m the one who’s not bright
Im stupid 
Immature
A mess
Right?

I wish I could just be blessed
I get more sad and sad every day
I just don’t want to live this way
I try so hard but what gets in the way is myself! 
I hate you
I hate you
I hate you 
I don’t even believe in myself and i’m ready to face my true fate

I’ve disappointed everyone enough and
I just want me to be enough for them
 not me
THEM!!

 

Tags: Hate, Dark, Depressing, Anger, Sad,

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Frank Hornby . commented on Nov 20, 2018 at 7:56am
I disagree that you think you're stupid....your poems have real meaning, and will be therapeutic to you .....and many others sharing your dark feelings....good luck Audrey...👍🏻✌🏻....more poems please....

 

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