Emotionally Scarred
I once believed,
that I could not be deceived.
But I soon found out,
that is what life is all about.
I've been hurt so many times before,
and now I'm realizing I can't take it no more.
Why should I live in a world full of pain?
When all my pain can be flushed down the drain.
All I want is to be loved.
But instead I either get pushed or shoved.
When I open my eyes all I see,
is a blanket of emotions smothering me.
Help me, help me , help me please.
I feel like a walking human disease.
It feels as if I'm in this world alone,
with no place to call a home.
Emotions here and scars there,
life isn't all that fair.
Sometimes I think death is the way out,
so other people can scream and shout.
Is there really a heaven or hell?
Because I'm really starting to dwell.
The past is what I use as medicine,
so I can heal my heartaches and pain within.
Decisions, decisions,
all my life I've been in collisions,
with people coming in and out.
What should I do, tell them to stay out?
Deep within my soul,
I know my heart will be one big hole.
I wonder if those who left me really cared,
or if they left out of my life feeling scared.
Where did they go, please tell me now,
I need to find out where and how.
Please tell me the path I must take,
so I can find them with not one mistake.
Hurry please I need to know,
where all those people who left me go.
I need to find them right now please,
so I can begin to feel at ease.
Does anyone hear the words that I say?
I scream and shout and yell all day.
I want to be heard and I want to be seen.
I hope what I'm asking for is not all that mean.
I wish for these emotions to go away.
I'm emotionally scarred and that's not ok.
Listen now and listen good.
I want to not be misunderstood.
I need to find out how to let this go.
Can you help me yes or no?
If you can't help me leave me be,
for I can find someone who can be of use to me.
For those who are listening and to those who care,
could you help me breathe in some air?
Can you tell me where I belong?
I don't want to be weak but strong.
Now you know what I go through.
I just hope I didn't bore you.
You have listened and listened well,
and now it's time to say farewell.
