Its Been a Year
Its been a year and I have nothing to show.
My heart still hurts, because I let it, so it continually grows.
Why do I do this when it doesn't help to move on,
Because my hearts knows that I love you and its where it belongs.
I miss the one I fell in love with, not the person you're now,
I'll find someone like you someday, somewhere, and somehow..
But until that day comes, I'll fake the smiles on my face,
No reason to be happy when I'm filled with disgrace.
I wish you thought twice to give me a chance,
But you decided to leave and end the romance.
I pleaded and begged you to look into my heart,
You left me deserted, you chose to be apart.
There were many things I didn't do, had regrets when you left,
But you said to be patient, so i was holding my breath.
I was hoping you'd consider but you were mostly afraid,
Of what everyone might say if you chose a mistake.
But I still held on because you told me to wait,
I respected your words even though I knew it was too late.
So I went to Hawaii, alone and so sad.
I thought I'd be happy but my trip just went bad.
All the places I went, all the things that I've seen,
Reminder me of memories of all the places we've been.
The holidays were cruel, I spent Christmas alone,
On Valentines Day I was crying at home.
I celebrated my birthday without the one that meant most,
So I did the next best thing, took a drive by the coast.
But again I saw good times, all from the past.
I saw images of us and the last place I smiled last.
I got what I deserve, your wish were fulfilled.
I feel like I died but I haven’t been killed.
But my heartache will pass and because you've moved on,
I’ve made it this far and I've hung on too long.
You always wanted to leave I was always there to change your mind,
Are you glad what I did because I didn’t stop you this time.
But I'll hold on to the memories even though you wont care,
Start a brand new beginning with a new person to share.
Someday I hope you'll learn to forgive,
I'm not making excuses, still mad at myself for the things that I did.
It was an honor to have you, the best girlfriend I've ever had,
The greatest moments we shared from the good to the bad,
We were once a great couple but weren't strong enough to last,
Now I'm closing this feeling, time to leave it in the past.
So I wish you forever and all the love in this world.
I pray and thank god I once called you my girl.
It’s gotten too much, time to sooth all the pain.
A year has gone by, no more reasons to complain.
It hurts till this day and I thought you should know.
It seems like forever but now I'm letting you go.
These are my final words, time for me to say good-bye.
I hope you're happy now because I'm out of your life.
