"IN-emy"

"IN-emy"
As my flesh screams out like a baby outta the womb...
I just want to let it consume me
I just want to let it undo me
I just want the fighting between spirit and flesh to stop
I just want to believe the elect im not
Maybe its easier to think THAT rather than i am
Maybe i just get tired of trying to murder what comes so natural
In the end im killing myself.. which comes with all kinds of holy side affects yet in the midst of the battle i gotta get the X
WHAT KIND OF VICTORY WORKS LIKE THAT???lol
If i quit I win, which means im dead in SIN.
Schizophrenic is this walk..
They say TRUTH will set you free
But they dont tell you the Chains of truth comes with accountability
Lord i believe but help my unbelief
Lord i believe but Help my unbelief
That has become a normal part of my day
Lord infiltrate my heart and mind
i know i cant do this without you for the rest of my life
I know you said you came to "Bring me LIFE"
But doing this part of "LIFE" with you while im here makes me want death 
I want to live in perfect, love, and rest
But i cant come to where you are just yet.....
Taken from a chapter out of:
#Darkthoughtsofachristianalwaysleadtohope

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