What do you do?

poem by: Chloe Lyons
Written on May 10, 2016

My parents.
My brother.
My sister.
My grandparents.
My girlfriend.
My friends.
All waiting on me to make decisions that I can't make.
I know what I want.
I know what makes me happy but I hurt someone no matter what I choose.
What do you do then? 
What do you do when you have to break your mother's heart?
When you tell your father and you look into his eyes and just see darkness and you know all he wishes is for you to be his little girl again
What do you do when your sister can barely talk to you because she is disappointed with what you have chosen for your life?
You have to pretend that you never talk to your girlfriend when certain people are around but you look into her eyes and you can see the pain
You see the tears, the hurt, the sadness she tries to hide from you when she says, "It's okay. It doesn't bother me."
 You see every shed of hope that she has that maybe one day your family will change 
That they will be okay with you. 
You see everyone of your lies that you tell your mother warring on her 
There is nothing you can do because you don't have a choice anymore
You see how much you hurt everyone but there is no happy medium
You hurt someone no matter what  you try to work out 
So please tell me
What do you do?

 

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