Her Hero

He was her hero 
Every call
Every cry 

She thought he protected her from all
Idolized him into this untouchable figure 
No one could hurt him, no one could hurt her

Yet many people hurt her
And many people got away 
But he didn't know 

His warmth was all she ever felt 
Blanketed by his love 
Even though she was in pieces 

Late at night disassembling razors 
Taking pills that read "may cause drowsiness"
Trying to take her own life 

She never blamed him for it 
Never quit seeing him as a hero 
He was her world 

Her only brightness away from her mind 
Why did she idolize him so?
What was it all about?

Was the warmth from all the alcohol
Was the high spirits from the coke 
Was the silliness from the weed 

In a cold world this man 
Is who this little girl looked up to 
Who she always ran to 

Isn't it sad? That was all she had.
To wait for months for him to come home 
Watch him drink and drink 

Her cries and rants for him to stop 
Hiding the addictions 
Hoping he would love her enough to quit 

He didn't stop 
And she knew he wouldn't
But she never gave up 

She saw her world deteriorate before her eyes 
Every attempt to save him 
Nothing worked 

Like trying to grab water 
Grasp it in your hands 
And hold it forever 

Her hero died when she was still a kid 
What kind of hero is that 
Years later she questions if he really ever saved her 

Now everyone seems like an enemy 
An accomplice to her pain 
No one really ever was her hero 

She looked up to an addict with her bright eyes 
Watched him die right before her 
Her hero, her dad. 

Was he really ever her hero? 
What did he save her from? 
Not all the pain in her life and what followed after... 

Tags: Pain, Confused, Sad,