human

lyrics by: Beautiful Chaos
Written on May 14, 2019

human:

I never told you there were voices in my head
Or what they say to me at three a.m.
My life isn’t simple, Darling
But you knew that going in
“Something came up, we’ll try tomorrow instead”
What I really mean is I don’t wanna pretend 
I try to be happy, Darling
But there are days I just can’t

Maybe I’m sick
Maybe I’m broken
They said it’s a gift
But I don’t want it
Maybe I’m weak
Maybe I’m selfish
It gets so lonely 
Just being human 
Maybe I’m sick
Maybe I’m broken
We’re starting to drift 
But Maybe I want it
Does that make me weak?
Maybe I’m selfish
What’s wrong with me?
I just want to feel human

I tried to warn you I still visit my past
It’s a weird game to see how long it will last
I promise I love you, Darling
But my mind is a mess
I’ve some things in my life you can’t understand
Sometimes, you talk, but I just need your hand
I don’t want to lose you, Darling
But I’m scared to commit

Maybe I’m sick
Maybe I’m broken
They said it’s a gift
But I don’t want it
Maybe I’m weak
Maybe I’m selfish
It gets so lonely 
Just being human 
Maybe I’m sick
Maybe I’m broken
We’re starting to drift 
But Maybe I want it
Does that make me weak?
Maybe I’m selfish
What’s wrong with me?
I just want to feel human


And what I’ll never say is that I’m drowning 
Understand that this distance is best
And you’d run the other way if you found me
So I pretend that my demons are pets 

you’ll never know about the waves that crush me
There’s an ocean between my ears
I’ll never know if you’d have stayed to catch me
I won’t let you close enough to leave me here

And Maybe I’m sick
Maybe I’m broken
We’re starting to drift 
And part of me wants it
Does that make me weak?
Maybe I’m selfish
What’s wrong with me?
I just want to feel human

 

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A previous user commented on May 14, 2019 at 10:42am
Have you ever read Sara Kane? She was a really dark playwriter. You might like it :)

 

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