Who She Became

poem by: Celeste Gaffney
Written on Jan 21, 2015


When she looks at herself in the mirror, she sees all the things she swore 
she'd never be. She sees a bottle of pills going down her throat chased by 
a bottle of vodka. She thinks when did this become me? When I was little a 
had dreams, dreams of being something big, now the biggest thing she could 
see herself becoming was a junkie, a nobody. She starves herself so she 
doesn't gain weight, she takes drugs to numb the pain, and she cuts herself 
so she can feel something. her heart beats cold, but she questions if it 
beats at all. She's completely dead inside, but that makes her feel happy. 
The days just go by, as she watches her money leave her hands and the drugs 
enter it. A problem she sees to begin, but no one else seems to care. Her 
love for drugs was more then any other. That's the day when she looked in 
the mirror, and she saw what she really became, a self destructive monster. 

 

Tags: sad, depressing, deep, pain, fear,

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Elizabeth Ladji commented:
Sad. But we'll written
J S commented:
its sad that one even see themselves as a 'self destructive monster', it just makes you want to question everything there is to life itself
Sun Chaser commented:
Sad truth. 😔
Edward shields commented:
Sounds like a cry for help?
Christopher Russon commented on Dec 04, 2017 at 8:45pm
Sad indeed that sad destructive distroys your potential. And your not alone.

 

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