It happened 6.01.2023
publication by:
Jay Shades
Written
on Feb 13, 2024
There was a pause of disparity
An unwelcome feeling of betrayal
Words being said that sounded foreign to me
Vowels and constanants being uttered that shook the ground beneath me.
Uncontrollable rage taking over and snapping my mind the sound of stepping on twigs comes to mind
The karma of life has come on to me
Betrayed by my girlfriend and bestfriend who I tret as a brother.
This man I let sleep on the sofa many nights he was couldn't go home.
This man I protected from his baby mums father when he was coming to break his face.
This man who I cooked Sunday dinner for and gave money to whilst he was warrant.
The man I forgave when I got jumped and he stood back and did nothing.
The woman who had 2 kids to me who knew all of this yet chose to hurt me with this person. Was this action justified is there a single reason to sleep with people who had been through stuff over 10 years and destroy that. I wanted to kill myself in 2022 and you knew, you say you slept with him in 2023. I don't believe you nobody does things like this never just happen and I guess I will die before I ever find out the truth.The love I feel for these two is still there hence why I didn't blow there heads off.
Heart broken in two
Not knowing how hard to hit this man if infront of me because the rage I have I cannot cool.
I suffer with diabetes type 1 and sickle cell anemia.
This is a story of me. Where I was at this time in my life to my kids and loved ones.
I ask that my kids don't judge there mum on this mistake as a mum she's amazing. as a partner she has burnt broke and tore me in two.
I may not know how ,I may not know when but I pray the Lord at some point makes me content
