Who Am I - Really.

poem by: Raychill Ellisonwonderland
Written on Nov 23, 2016

Content Note: Explores identity fracture, self-doubt, and emotional disconnection.

Where do I draw the line
when mindless doodles fill the pages
of my empty book?

I sketch the same things—
but still, I can’t seem to carefully capture
the images that rush,
eager to escape from my fingertips.

Shapes not straight,
circles turned oblong,
proportions all wrong—
I never did bother with guidelines.

The repetition says something,
but the dots don’t connect.
No dashes either.

I’m told I must know this stuff.
So I pretend I do.

 

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Christopher Russon commented:
Lovely poem.shapes not straight.circles to oblong.clever wording .I think we all fail to connect Those dots many times.

 

 

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