Dear Mum.....

Right now there is a million things that I would like to say,
But now is not the time or place for leading you astray.
I'd love to say 'I'm sorry' of that you can be sure,
I'd even like to tell you that I'm different from before.
I really think I've grown, in more ways than you think.
I now see all you did for me, that I pushed you to the brink.
I wouldn't call you perfect, cause that would be untrue.
But you can't get much closer than the wonder that is you.
I was sat here thinking of you and how wonderful you are
When I realised that my actions, where what toar us apart.
Undeserving you can call me, selfish if you please,
But trust me when I say 'That no one hates me more than me!'
There's reason after reason why I'd change things if I could,
But mainly it's because you see what's underneath my hood.
And every single day since I fucked up all I had,
It sinks in more and more that I hurt you really bad.
I never meant to dissapoint you, but I wasn't made to ppplease. 
So now, I'll stay away from you, and leave your life in peace.
I love you all so dearly, though you may not understand
But please don't be so stupid as to give me another chamce.

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