My Grand Reality

Got to take my vitamin D
Cause the sun won’t shine upon me
Shadow dwelling out of the light 
Shadows fade to dark lonely nights

Here I sit, poised in second chair
Pretending that I don’t really care
But I don’t like it, reality bites
Ripping off huge chunks of my life

I poke my head out into the light 
And instantaneously it’s night
Dark and murky thoughts surround me
Just another numbered fish in the sea

Got to take the best vitamin 
If I want to be number one
Go for broke, never say die
Compose yourself and don’t f**king cry

43 years teetering at the brink 
Testing constantly so I can’t think
Cannot make it over the line
Just out of reach going out of my mind

My words I scream…”What am I to be?”
No one here, just My Grand Reality.
So now I cry out…..”What’s left for me?”
“I’ve been waiting far too long for 
My Grand Reality”

Tags: pain, dark,