Unmedicated

lyrics by: Beth Binkley
Written on Jul 23, 2018 

I feel sick to my stomach 
most of the time
So I hide in my room
and commit silent crime
Forget all my friends
who will leave anyway
And give tales to their parents 
about why we don’t hang
Cause it was one-way
It was always that way

And I’ll peel off my socks
maybe go wash my face
Wash the feeling away 
Wash the feeling away
You were never that good
never knew where I stood
So I knew you would cave
Yeah I knew you would cave

But I felt you leave
before saying goodbye
And although you’re not gone
we know soon it will die

So I’ll vent to my wall
still too numb to weep
Cause the pain comes in waves 
and it keeps me from sleep
But I’ll tell me I’m better 
than the things I have seen
And the people who left me
without coming clean

Then I’ll cry myself new
so devoid of you
And you’ll wonder how
you never came to
And I’ll throw up the pills
feeling bright and brand new

Yeah I’m unmedicated 
but now so are you

 

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