Just going in !

When will I break the cycle,
Put a Halt to this spiral,
Suicidal thoughts on my mind,
Confronted by the heart with desire of survival,
Caged and claustrophobic,
I feel I can't breathe,
It's the hard way out this life,
That's why I choose not to leave,
Imagine that ??
Vision it,
12 inch Army blade pressed against my throat, 
Battling with voices in my head,
Telling me " You won't slit"
Motherfucking bitch your too pussy to finish this,
"Quick Rick,
It's a quick slice to end all this shit,
I can't believe I'm taking advice from my consciousness,
Subconsciously I know deep down that every action will have a consequence,
But I still manage to fuck up an do stupid shit without realising the seriousness !
Maybe it's just me and I'm just dumb as fuck,
Period !
Or maybe it's true what my pops says about life.
Maybe I've just not got enough experience, 
Pops  says Self-discipline no harm in obedience,
Funny man is my old man but he will never make no comedian,
I assure myself that I'm doing jus fine,
Brace myself for that brave front,
But I'm crumbling to pieces deep down inside,
They can't handle ma deepest,
But I always pick myself up even at my weakest,
If ya can't handle the deepest find solace in Jesus,
He's the only one who can help battle those demons of evil,

 

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