The Nightmare That is You

For so many years 
For me there was only you 
But you started to change 
You weren't who I knew 

I wanted a family 
For us to have a life 
But you were more concerned about bitches 
And snorting your next line 

Before you I was a focused woman 
Career centered and job oriented 
But soon I wasn't me anymore 
You made me broken and my mind demented 

You broke the women you "loved"
Into a million pieces 
You hit me during sex 
You made me feel defeated 

You liked it too rough
And to slap me across the face 
You would make me draw blood 
I remember the taste 

I used to tell you 
My wants and my needs 
But you never listened 
You were the "king"

I will never forget 
The day you first raised your fist 
You promised to never scare me like that again 
And you sealed it with a kiss 

For months your hand was broke 
From punching that counter 
You said next time it could be me
As your voice got louder 

From that point on 
I knew I had to escape and let go 
But life without you 
Was something I didn't know 

Months went by 
Of us on and off 
I was hard for me to break ties 
I was too soft 

But when I finally let go 
It was such a damn relief 
Because I found myself 
And I finally felt free 

Since I've left you 
My, how I've grown 
He has showed me what love is 
Now I never feel alone 

He has changed me for the better 
He's erased you and helped me heal 
But you still haunt my nightmares 
And that, I will always conceal 

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