What is real and what is not

Some times im sad and alone 
Kinda empty inside like im the clone 
Your cold and unlovin ...and brake my heart all the time ..i know you dont care ..i know your not really hear ... you loose your self infront of a screan ...loose your self while keeping meen .
Im stuck in a love thats not even real
...sad and alone i know how it feels .
To be happy what does that meen .
To be shouted at or called names .
My heart has lost the will to survive ..id rather die then live this lie . Sometimes i live in hope that maby the boy i loved would come back.
But i know hes dead and in place of love ... comes fear instead
I wanted to be loved for the first time ..my problem is i had to beg for it wich i know and you know its not real... when will my time come ..why did i set up home with a fake .
Will my chance ever come to have a man love me and treat me properly . That keeps his promisses and once and for all puts me first ..thats true love ... not being frighten to open up from fear of your words ... a real love who loves me back and isent afraid to show it ...i shall lie in hope that im at least strong enough to live x

Tags: sad, love, confused, pain, fear,